Wednesday, August 31, 2005

What's Right?

As everyone knows there has been the biggest national disaster in a long time take place in New Orleans and Miss. It's tragic. As I watched footage of a city covered in water, the looting and listened to information regarding the rising death toll and widespread devastation I wondered if I was wrong to feel like I did with my current situation and the depression I feel. I mean someone somewhere is always having problems right? Granted I haven't just lost everything but does that mean my problems don't matter? That what I am feeling or going through isn't as bad from my perspective? I realize this is just what it is - PERSPECTIVE. But it's mine and if you knew the story from the beginning I think you would agree the situation "feels" pretty hopeless. After what I read on Matt's site "givin' it back to 'em" in a revenge like manner seems like a pretty good answer and after what we have been through it might make me feel good...for about 10 seconds. Then of course I would realize I never had control of the situation to begin with and you can't control what other people do only what you do in response. And I will just have to know God will take "care" of those people who hurt us so deeply and caused this pain which is more than just emotional. You who are reading this may be thinking this makes no sense at all. I am reaching out and begging you all to please join with me and pray for peace, reassurance and most of all wisdom. Dont' say you will just to say it either, we need it like we have never needed it before.

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Feeling blonde?

Football FINALLY makes sense..........
A guy took his blonde girlfriend to her first football game. They had great seats right behind their team's bench. After the game, he asked her how she liked the experience. "Oh, I really liked it," she replied, "especially the tight pants and all the big muscles, but I just couldn't understand why they were killing each other over 25 cents." Dumbfounded, her date asked, "What do you mean?" "Well, they flipped a coin, one team got it and then for the rest of the game, all they kept screaming was: "Get the quarterback! Get the quarterback!" I'm like...Helloooooo? It's only 25 cents!!!!

Monday, August 29, 2005

When it rains, it pours

I am not talking about the recent hurricane either. I am referring to just one more thing to happen to us since we moved here. There are things you all know about and then there are things only some of you know about. So, if you are reading this and thinking what's the big deal - just know there is so much more.

It started about three weeks ago when I began having this back pain. I didn't really think much of it since I have frequently dealt with this b/c of 2 car accidents I've had. Well, this one was different. It was localized in my right lower back area and it was getting worse. It got to the point I was in pain 24/7. I didn't really say much about it except for passing comments like "wow, my back hurts or I wonder what the deal is" but other than that nothing. Which if you know me is a big deal b/c I am such a drama queen and have no pain tolerance at all. Then last week I began feeling the pain in the same area but in my abdomen. Ok, so now I am getting nervous. I am also finding that no matter what I do the pain is bad, even lying down. Well, Thursday night it must have peaked b/c I couldn't even stay on my feet. I had to keep dropping to my knees it was so bad. I managed to make dinner but as I was carrying my plate to the table I once again had to drop to my knees b/c this pain was searing through me. That was all I could take. I began to cry and I do mean cry. I told Jared to get the neighbor b/c I needed to go to the walk in clinic right that second. I have the best neighbor's in the world. Michelle came over and my mother in law took me to the Dr. The story doesn't get any better. The pain had slightly subsided and I explained everything, told them my history, yada, yada, yada. Peed in a cup, you know the drill. The Dr. came in pressed my stomach, whacked my back, told me I had a bladder infection (even though none of my symptoms were consistent with that of a bladder infection) wrote me a script and sent me home. I was shocked. So was my mother in law. She was like, is that all you're gonna do? He was like well her urinalysis doesn't scream bladder infection but I just want to rule it out. Yeah right, you mean you wanted to get me out of there fast b/c it was closing time. So, I pick up my script go home go to bed and pray for the pain to stop. The next morning I knew something wasn't right. I was like, I am no Dr. but.....Well, the receptionist from the Dr. office called to see how I was and I had more questions than she could answer so she had the nurse call me back. Yeah, I knew I wasn't stupid. This sweet nurse who called me said her and the other Dr. both conquered I DID NOT HAVE A BLADDER INFECTION!!!! She apologized profusely for what had happened and said I did need follow up b/c there was blood in my urine. BLOOD!!! What the....? He never said anything about that. So, long story short they think I have a stone, fun huh? I need to make an appointment with a REAL Dr. and have some diagnostic imaging now I have insurance. Can anything else go wrong? I know the answer is YES but can I just take a moment and say "I want to go home."

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

The Happiest Place on Earth

When my Aunt Holly was visiting last week she wanted to bless all the boys for their birthdays so she took us all to Disney World - The Magic Kingdom. Jared just turned 12 (can you believe we have a 12 year old?). So, we took the kids out of school for the day and along with Darin and Brian headed off to see Mickey and Goofy. It was hotter than heck but we had a blast anyway.


L-R Darin, Jayden, Brian, Jared, Jackson and Holly

He's 12 and ready to drive


Jared in shackles


Jackson, Goofy and Jayden


Jayden, Mickey, Jackson and me


All the boys


Darin and Brian (can you tell their brothers)


Me and Holly going 3-D


Princess Brian (he's delirious from the heat)

Monday, August 22, 2005

Sophie's Choice

My best friend, who is now no longer blogging just got a dog. Her name is Sophie. Isn't she cute. This is the weirdest thing to happen in a long time. Jeanette was so not into getting a dog at all. Mainly b/c they are such a huge responsibility but also b/c she also has this pyhsco mean cat named Mr. Graham who barely likes his owners let alone another animal in the house. Well, this could be just the push that cat needs to make him appreciate how good he has it and start being nice to people. Here's hoping...


Thursday, August 18, 2005

Coffee Anyone?



I got a job!!! I am a BARISTA at Starbucks. Wanna know the best parts? No, it isn't the free coffee since I don't even drink it...I can walk to work, I will make some tips and my managers both have kids so they understand the importance of family. Wish me luck, I start Monday.

Monday, August 15, 2005

In Loving Memory

Jaclyn Rene Maciaszek

February 19th 1978 ~ August 9th 2005

Today our family said "See you later" to my sister-in-law Jaclyn as she was laid to rest. Please keep my brother-in-law Darin and the rest of Jaclyn's family in your prayers as we now grieve a life taken too soon. We know God is the ultimate giver of peace and we look to Him during this sorrowful time.

Monday, August 08, 2005

The toothless wonder

You guessed it. Jayden lost another tooth. It was another exciting moment as it kind of fell into his hand at lunch the other day and of course his immediate reaction was "I'm getting a dollar!" Let me tell you about the world Jayden lives in. He has gotten in big with the tooth fairy. I am not talking about Brian and I either. We have some really precious friends back home, Barb and Craig and they happen to adore our kids and if you know Jayden then you know he will have you eating out of his hand pretty quick. Well of course he was like "I have to call Mrs. Olson and tell her I lost my tooth." and I told him fine but you better not ask for any money and he was like ooooook. So we call and of course she is like oh my gosh, you lost your tooth, that is so cool and what does Jayden tell her..."yeah, my mom said not to ask for you to give me any money." I was mortified and then on the other end heard Barb say "well you tell your mom I can do whatever I want b/c I am the toothfairy." So of course I get on the phone laughing and she is laughing and I explain I didn't want him to think he was getting five bucks every time he lost a tooth. She just loved it, she just loves 'em all. So, Sunday we finally check the mail and what's in there but a card from the TOOTH FAIRY! And let me tell you, she hooked all of those kids up. A trip to Walmart is coming up pretty soon b/c you know that money is burning a hole in their pockets. Well, here's a funny thing. Today at school, Jared lost what is almost the last of his baby teeth so I guess the tooth fairy was right on time.



Friday, August 05, 2005

First Day of School 2005

Just wanted to take a minute to share with you my handsome boys as they started their first day of school yesterday.
Jared~7th grade
Jackson~2nd grade
Jayden~1st grade

and...The Three Musketeers.


They all had a great first day and I am still coming to terms with how fast this is all going. If your a parent soak it all in b/c you blink and they are in 7th grade!

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Food, friends and fun!

Tonight we had dinner with some of the new people we met in our community. Stacie, (the one playing with Jayden)lives right below us and Kara lives in one of the town homes opposite our courtyard (although she is moving out in 2 weeks 'sniff'sniff'). We made chicken and beef tacos with all the trimmings, even avocados which was a new thing for me. I mean, I like them but never thought to put them with tacos. Man, they were so good. It was funny when we put the chicken on the table the kids asked what it was and Stacie tried to convince them it was deer meat. She was pretty good but no, Jared is just too old to fall for that anymore. Nice try Stac! Anyway, we all had a great time and it was really fun to hang with some "girls" for a change (not that I don't love and adore my boys but...)and the best part...we are gonna start a BUNCO group! I am really in hog heaven now. I'll let you know how all that turns out.

Jayden convinced Stacie to play OPERATION!


Kara cooking the "deer meat".


Preparing to feast...


Many hands make light work.

Looking forward to more nights just like this one. Maybe even a kid free one. ;)

The Most Original Day Brightener

The other day my walk from the mail box was a little more exciting because in between all the junk and bills was this...



a brightly colored envelope from my good friend Betsy and Marken in Arizona. We have known each other for 5 years now and became very good friends when we began working out together (in preparation for her wedding) and serving at youth. Then in 2002 when Betsy became, I think, the most beautiful bride I have ever seen Jayden (our youngest) was her flower dude and Brian was one of their groomsmen.



Anyway, Betsy sent me the most original card I have ever receieved. It was a puzzle. Now, before you say "Oh yeah I've sent one of those before..." I seriously doubt you have. You see, she made it herself. Here's a picture of it. Thank you so much Betsy, you totally made my day.


Side note: After I put it together I taped it and it hangs on my fridge as a constant reminder someone else far away loves us. Be blessed.

Monday, August 01, 2005

Carl's Garden

My friend Kishan sent me this story, and true or not it's precious to read.


Carl was a quiet man. He didn't talk much. He would always greet you with a big smile and a firm handshake. Even after living in our neighborhood for over 50 years, no one could really say they knew him very well. Before his retirement, he took the bus to work each morning. The lone sight of him walking down the street often worried us. He had a slight limp from a bullet wound received in W.W.II. Watching him, we worried that although he had survived W.W.II,he may not make it through our changing uptown neighborhood with its ever-increasing random violence, gangs, and drug activity. When he saw the flyer at our local church asking for volunteers for caring for the gardens behind the minister's residence, he responded in his characteristically unassuming manner. Without fanfare, he just signed up. He was well into his 87th year when the very thing we had always feared finally happened. He was just finishing his watering for the day when three gang members approached him. Ignoring their attempt to intimidate him, he simply asked, "Would you like a drink from the hose?" The tallest and toughest-looking of the three said, "Yeah, sure," with a malevolent little smile. As Carl offered the hose to him, the other two grabbed Carl's arm, throwing him down. As the hose snaked crazily over the ground, dousing everything in its way, Carl's assailants stole his retirement watch and his wallet, and then fled. Carl tried to get himself up, but he had been thrown down on his bad leg. He lay there trying to gather himself as the minister came running to help him. Although the minister had witnessed the attack from his window, he couldn't get there fast enough to stop it. "Carl, are you okay? Are you hurt?" the minister kept asking as he helped Carl to his feet. Carl just passed a hand over his brow and sighed, shaking his head. "Just some punk kids. I hope they'll wise-up someday." His wet clothes clung to his slight frame as he bent to pick up the hose. He adjusted the nozzle again and started to water. Confused and a little concerned, the minister asked "Carl, what are you doing?" "I've got to finish my watering. It's been very dry lately," came the calm reply.Satisfying himself that Carl really was all right, the minister could only marvel. Carl was a man from a different time and place. A few weeks later the three returned. Just as before their threat was unchallenged. Carl again offered them a drink from his hose. This time they didn't rob him. They wrenched the hose from his hand and drenched him head to foot in the icy water. When they had finished their humiliation of him, they sauntered off down the street, throwing catcalls and curses, falling over one another laughing at the hilarity of what they had just done Carl just watched them. Then he turned toward the warmth giving sun, picked up his hose, and went on with his watering. The summer was quickly fading into fall. Carl was doing some tilling when he was startled by the sudden approach of someone behind him. He stumbled and fell into some evergreen branches. As he struggled to regain his footing, he turned to see the tall leader of his summer tormentors reaching down for him. He braced himself for the expected attack. "Don't worry old man, I'm not gonna hurt you this time." The young man spoke softly, still offering the tattooed and scarred hand to Carl. As he helped Carl get up, the man pulled a crumpled bag from his pocket and handed it to Carl. "What's this?" Carl asked. "It's your stuff," the man explained. "It's your stuff back. Even the money in your wallet." "I don't understand," Carl said. "Why would you help me now?" He man shifted his feet, seeming embarrassed and ill at ease. "I learned something from you," he said. "I ran with that gang and hurt people like you. We picked you because you were old and we knew we could do it. But every time we came and did something to you, instead of yelling and fighting back, you tried to give us a drink. You didn't hate us for hating you. You kept showing love against our hate." He stopped for a moment. "I couldn't sleep after we stole your stuff, so here it is back." He paused for another awkward moment, not knowing what more there was to say. "That bag's my way of saying thanks for straightening me out, I guess." And with that, he walked off down the street. Carl looked down at the sack in his hands and gingerly opened it. He took out his retirement watch and put it back on his wrist. Opening his wallet, he checked for his wedding photo. He gazed for a moment at the young bride that still smiled back at him from all those years ago. He died one cold day after Christmas that winter. Many people attended his funeral in spite of the weather. In particular the minister noticed a tall young man that he didn't know sitting quietly in a distant corner of the church. The minister spoke of Carl's garden as a lesson in life. In a voice made thick with unshed tears, he said, "Do your best and make your garden as beautiful as you can. We will never forget Carl and his garden" The following spring another flyer went up. It read: "Person needed to care for Carl's garden." The flyer went unnoticed by the busy parishioners until one day when a knock was heard at the minister's office door. Opening the door, the minister saw a pair of scarred and tattooed hands holding the flyer. "I believe this is my job, if you'll have me," the young man said. The minister recognized him as the same young man who had returned the stolen watch and wallet to Carl. He knew that Carl's kindness had turned this man's life around. As the minister handed him the keys to the garden shed, he said, "Yes, go take care of Carl's garden and honor him." The man went to work and, over the next several years, he tended the flowers and vegetables just as Carl had done. In that time, he went to college, got married, and became a prominent member of the community. But he never forgot his promise to Carl's memory and kept the garden as beautiful as he thought Carl would have kept it. One day he approached the new minister and told him that he couldn't care for the garden any longer. He explained with a shy and happy smile, "My wife just had a baby boy last night, and she's bringing him home on Saturday. "Well, congratulations!" said the minister, as he was handed the garden shed keys. "That's wonderful! What's the baby's name?" "Carl," he replied.

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